sunshine on my shoulders

Sitting on the verandah, with the sun warming my back and my insides. Drinking a cup of green tea. My sweet Phoebe for company. Its idyllic, but I'm a little afraid to be alone with my thoughts. They lead to the same person and the same situation in a very irritating recurrent manner. I have admitted my feelings and thoughts to myself and to God, and no one else. I miss that refrain that was taught to me at college... I think it was "I cast my burden upon God and walk free"... It had really helped me out then, and it helped me sleep last night after a week of sleeplessness.

But that burden of thought has found its way back into my mind where its repeating itself like a bad tune. I'm becoming a bit too self involved and a tad obsessive. All this in the space of but three days. This has to be the longest week of my life. And its only wednesday! Please God, if there's something better up ahead for me, let me see it now, before I go out of my mind with the waiting and disappointment- if thers going to be any...





Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost always makes me high

If I had a day that I could give you
I'd give to you the day just like today
If I had a song that I could sing for you
I'd sing a song to make you feel this way

Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost always makes me high

If I had a tale that I could tell you
I'd tell a tale sure to make you smile
If I had a wish that I could wish for you
I'd make a wish for sunshine for all the while

Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost all the time makes me high

Bout of Melancholia

I have for the past few days been hit by bouts of melancholy and just over all weirdness. On top of that, for some reason I feel my hormones have suddenly freaked out on me. I have not been able to control my emotions... Recently I saw a supposed romantic comedy ... P.S. I Love You and I wept! I was shocked at myself. I was bawling...crying my eyes over the movie, it was just the hormones working against me.

All middle class Indians go through a torture stage in their lives when their parents look for an eligible life partner for them. Continuing this delightful version of the Spanish Inquisition, my family too is hunting the four corners of India in search of a suitable match for me. High time i read A Suitable Boy.

Following are excerpts from my Bio data. I find them strange and unconvincing. All the facts are true, but it makes me wonder, do all these details make me eligible?

What is eligibility?

Would someone who read these, find me SUITABLE? If yes, then for what??

No one who reads this would ever know that I am a big Doors fan or that I can write creatively and equally well in both English as well as Hindi or that my friends gave me the nickname Sexysharma in college for my slightly risque sense of humour. Yet they would know that if they needed to spy on my family or me, they could contact any friend/relative/acquaintance in Jaipur and they'd have tolerably reliable information. Or if they wanted glowing references of my family name and background, they can contact any of the people listed at the end of this list...

Oh, btw, if you are viewing this post after 25.03.09, you'll find a severely edited version.

Name : edited

Date of birth : edited

Height : edited

Education : Educated at M.G.D. girls public school, Jaipur. Extremely
fond of reading and writing, she was elected for the post of secretary of the English Literary Society at Sophia College, Mumbai, from where she completed her graduation in March 2007. Having topped the College in English honours, she not only received numerous awards for her organization and creative writing abilities, she was also part of an Excellence in Arts program where she conducted field research which is now published and accepted by Mumbai University Library. Currently she is pursuing Fashion Designing at the Pearl Academy of Fashion, Jaipur

Personality : Graceful, very good looking, lively but family oriented girl
with keen sense of caring. She has been brought up in a joint family and is very attached to the family. She has always been very popular and well known in her school and college for her organizational capacity and helpful nature.

Family : We are a joint family of three brothers, staying together in Jaipur for the last fifty years. Our family business consists of Ayurvedic medicines, Newspaper, real estate, commercial complexes etc.

We are Gaur brahmins with a strong commitment for social work too. Our family runs several charitable institutions, including the oldest Higher Secondary school with a hostel in the Torawati region of Rajasthan. Besides this, our family has established a separate school for girls, a dharmshala, and a large temple in our ancestral village, where a lakhi mela is held every year.





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References:

:Sh. Bhairon Singh Shekhawat :Ex Vice President of India.

• Pt. Nawal Kishore Sharma : has been General Secretary of AICC and Minister of Petroleum in Rajiv Gandhi’s cabinet. Presently Governor of Gujarat.

• Sh. Rameshwar Thakur : C.A. and former Minister in Narsimha Rao’s cabinet. Presently Governor of Orrisa.

• Sh. Ashok Gehlot : Chief Minister of Rajasthan and former Tourism Minister in the central cabinet.

• Smt. Vasundhara Raje : Ex-Chief Minister of Rajasthan

• Sh. Bhuvnesh Chaturvedi : Former minister in PMO in Narsimha Rao’s cabinet.

• Sh. Gokul Prasad Sharma : of Bombay Hospital, Mumbai.

• Sh. Ramniwas Mirdha : Ex Telecommunication Minister, Govt. of India.